Troubled....
Typing on my iPad, is a actually very hard to do. is life supposed to be ying\yang? I mean are we supposed to go through good times, great times, then bad times, and horrible times? Fuck, I am so trying to make sense right now. Last year I had one of the GREATEST years of my whole entire life. This year (2011) has been literally one (one) of the worst I have had so far. I am trying (have been trying) to maintain a positive attitude, but I have been failing miserably. I shut people out of my life so much in these recent years, that now that I need someone to come visit me, or need me no one gives a flying fuck. Is this what is left? I have been pondering, if this how my life is going to be? I really hate everything (including myself) at the moment. Nothing seems to be right. Why. Wasn't having a horrible childhood sufficient? Need I fail at my Adult life as well? Looks like I'm at the end of the line. For the record, I'm not suicidal, I am troubled. I wish I could get a tatt